I've always been interested in a million things – often many of them at the same time.
I'd learned to live with this fact about myself although comments from others often made me stop and wonder if I was an alien or something was "wrong" with me.
I've collected degrees [BA,AM, PhD, and JD] and worked as an attorney, kindergarten teacher, 5 and 10 cent store clerk, college professor, therapist, evaluator, researcher, ski instructor, etc. and left them all behind to move onto other adventures.
I've moved around a lot too – coast to coast and found a religion that fit me better than the one I was raised in. [Then there are all the hobbies, sports and musical interests that I engage in.]
I don't do well working for others for long periods of time so no "real" full time job lasted more than two years. Self-employment seemed the only path and that's what I have been doing most of my adult life.
A few years ago, Mara, a friend I met on Twitter came to Portland and in the course of our conversations she figured I was a scanner – a term I never heard before in the context of a type-of-person. It intrigued me and I started reading about scanners.
Once I read Refuse to Choose by Barbara Sher – I had one of those "oh my g-d; that's me" moments! It had a very profound effect on me as some internal thought mechanisms made a rapid shift.
This is still a quite novel feeling and I haven't really analyzed it – I'm just happy to finally know I am not an alien nor is there anything "wrong" with me – I'm a Sybil-type scanner.
And instead of bemoaning the fact that I had not known this for the last 50-60 years – I was able to say "Hey – I am so glad I learned this before I turned 70!"
Sybils start a lot of projects, are surrounded by creative clutter [interspersed with bouts of organizing it] and can leave unfinished projects unfinished. [Yup that's me.]
In my midish 60's I found a way to combine most of my interests under an umbrella business where my many thoughts, ideas and areas of expertise could find a home and find each other.
I love to write, take pictures, make videos, talk, read, teach, offer advice and be a fun person. Gray Wolf Productions allows me to do this. And now that I know it's really ok to have all these interests – I feel and am so much more productive! A major "something" has been lifted from my soul/psyche/brain.
About the Name
Gray Wolf Productions
[photo of Ethel Gray, my mother]
Gray Wolf has meaning for me on many levels. My heritage contains Native American ancestry, I have always loved wolves, Gray is a family name and gray is what happens when we age [I color mine] and the company will produce informative materials.
As the name includes so much of me, it seemed the perfect name for a company that includes so much of me.
Again – let me welcome you to Parenting 201, a division of Gray Wolf Productions, my "scanner umbrella."
Look around the site and start scanning horizons with me…
and with your children
I am a part of all that I have met;Yet all experience is an arch wherethro’Gleams that untravell’d world, whose margin fadesFor ever and for ever when I move.How dull it is to pause, to make an end,To rust unburnish’d, not to shine in use!
Come, my friends.'Tis not too late to seek a newer world.Push off, and sitting well in order smiteThe sounding furrows; for my purpose holdsTo sail beyond the sunset, and the bathsOf all the western stars, until I die.
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.
Alfred Lord Tennyson – Ulysses